Guest Star Carly Donaldson

She's Damn Crazy

A ten in her pocket and a little-a change

And the fact that she’s been changin’ her ways,

She’s gotta figure out a way ta’ survive,

Without takin’ away her pride.

She’s had 35 years to have it all figured out,

These crazy ole’ dreams are what she’s about,

She’s got all of us, but she’s away.

I miss her hugs, and this is what I’ll say:

Chorus 1

She’s damn crazy, but she wears it well

They’re mad in love, can’t you tell?

They’ve been through heaven and through hell

To get to what they’ve been searching for all year

Da da da, dadada.. Ba da da, dadada, da da da, dadada, dadaaaaa....

This madness that they demonstrate,

Just hangin’ around on holidays.

Simplistic life, no time for regret

This poor old woman that you haven’t met

Her ideas never change

Crazy thoughts and crazier games

A know-it-all by her side,

To keep her alive, by-and-by

She’s damn crazy; can’t you tell?

He’s just a boy that somehow

Got into life and out of this house

They’re together, and this is what he says:

Chorus 2

"She’s damn crazy, but she wears it well

We’re mad in love, can’t you tell?

I’ve been through ‘er heaven and her hell

Just to get where we’ve been searching for all these years."

“These crazy dreams right in front of me,” she said,

As she was breakin’ down in her head,

“I can’t figure out how I got here,

But I’ve known all along that this is where we’re from,”

Ba da da da da, da da da, dadada, ba dada, ba dada, ba dada, dadada

(Chorus 1) badadadadadadadaaaaaa….Searchin’ for allllllll yearrrrrrrrrr

Guest Posting Daniel Winner

Much like a wild horse just broken, he felt the yoke of reality placed on his head and around his neck.  The rose tinted glasses he’d worn for so long, now cracked.  He’d a new found understanding for reality and how it not only affected him, but also how it affected others. 

Life could be warm, like a fuzzy sweatshirt fresh from the dryer on a winter’s eve, or it could be cold, as a frozen tundra ‘neath a wintery peak in the driving ice.  He now realized that she experienced both ends of the spectrum, in multiple ways.  Emotionally, spiritually, physically and philosophically she was thrust into a position that altered her world into a non-objective abstract in which there seemed no end.

The thought was humbling.  How could he consider himself tough, let alone think of himself on the same level has her?  She truly was a great person, if only those around her could catch just a taste of it, what would they do?  What could they do?

The truth is nothing.  At least nothing that would help.  Shed a tear?  Offer a supportive hug?  While both strong expressions of human emotion, they both serve the person emitting them, not those which evoked them. 

Here nor There, Just is

I find, I'm this person who still wants to achieve. I work hard for these things, no, I didn't find these things in a paying job, but I did find this work to be work. I enjoy it so much. It gives me this high, a high of life before RSD. Before RSD I got this mania from being Bipolar and often the mood swings that came along with it, today it has been a bit refined. It had to be, otherwise I was going to be stuck in this world of pain. Not just physical but mental pain. I was a fighter, right? Yes, YES I WAS! I am going to fight the best way I know how. 

We all seem to do what is the easiest right? I found that I could help other's understand how, life with RSD didn't have to be this horrid game of DRs and medication. Not everyone can do this and it doesn't ever mean that I won't go back to it again. I'm still a stage 1. It does not mean I'm lucky or that I got it easier. We all have our bad days along with what I call a bit of salvation from something much more powerful than me and RSD. This also doesn't mean that I'm thumping up on the Bible either. It just means, I'm human. 

I worked my fanny off last night for the other RSDers and my hubby, he worked hard for us too. He works his fanny off (it is gone already) shhhh, for the caregiver and the RSDer. Does it mean we will try and fix. HECK NO! Just to help to understand, understand what it is like, what options are out there, our experience and most of all, that you are in control of so much. You have the power much more than any DR has to help yourself. 

Yes you! You with proper knowledge can make your life a bit better. When we are armed with knowledge, we are impowering ourselves to the greatest of our ability. When you are armed you make better decisions too, not just for you but for the entire family unit. Why? 

I might piss people off with this or they may look upon me different but that's OK too! We are all unique! 
Because, I care!