Wednesday, March 20, 2013

All for Pain! My enemy!



With the kids ill, Julianna's pain and my own feelings about it; I have been hit by the intensity of raw emotion I thought I would never feel again after dealing with my own RSD. I instead have come to accept coping with this life and then the continuation of MY life while keeping the desire to push, love and still respect life.
RSDS is a "itch" of a syndrome!!! It always reminds us what life is all about. There are certain needs we all have to have filled. I have been emotional to say the least. When in doubt, throw it to the wind and scream like a MoFo at the GODS! Get it the F out, drop the F bomb(or whatever you need to say) then see how you can then best move on, how you can best suit the world as we WANT it to be! We all have a 'chit day'!

We, you (*FB FRIENDS*) and I have been together, talking and blogging. I have been known for always bringing the reality of the home life to the forefront of 'The RSD Family Life'. We are these broken lovers of life, tested, screaming for our salvation and sanity. Repeatedly trying, we get the F up and try, over and over, and over again! We fall so easy! It's called the human factor! When it's not right, don't do it! There is the time for it all! We all get burned! Divorce is a pansy ass way of not facing reality and coping! Learn, be willing to TRY! Don't just get by, Don't run away... try over and over, new ways, ways outside of your normal, think outside the box to survive!

Skeletons all out of the closet, I'm a Bipolar, ADD RSDer who is outspoken and whistle blowing. (Hot Mess) If asked what singer are you most like? It would be PINK! It kind looks like this; Pink + Southern Girl who love rodeos and GMO free food! I have gone through it all, and I do mean it all. I stand up for our KIDS in public schools, I stand up for them all in school, their lunches are hideous, their supports are too. BULLIES! Gross. I think the grocery store is a great place to educate moms on their choices of food/fuel to give their family! In order to support the needs of our RSD Family, I'm working my ass off, you are welcome. I let you see all of me, even the parts that are not pretty, it's ok for me. I think the more we do this, the more humble we become, the growth we will then face is more powerful.

You are not alone to face the RSD DRAGON DEMON! You are not alone in your FIGHT! I have attempted to make my posts a home for us all! My work is for all of us. We are looking for this place of peace, while we reside in pain. It is normal to pitch fits, but it's not normal EVERY DAY! Pick a time and let out the feelings before we let go and move on, this is healthy. We must all try to find a bit of home and happiness. I'm so grateful for Kaitlyn Pintor, she is my mentor and I'm her fan for life. Trained, lovable and willing to help so many. I'm grateful for where she has Taken Bay Area Support; and where after so much work, I now can then take Texas Support for RSD/CRPS (secret group) for sanity and privacy as RSD is so snasty, but we work hard together for each-other as we grow!
That brings us to where we are now.... I will wait for you! When you are ready to join the fight you will! We will be ready for you! Until then, I give it to the GODS. I will wait for you again and again. I will be forgiving and loving to all creatures as we are all FAMILY.

I love you

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